PENNY FOR YOUR THOUGHTS..

Watched a few scenes of that Mel Gibsons movie 'what women want' earlier today and I was honestly grateful my thoughts can't be read. The Holy Spirit may decide to reveal somethings but it isn't that thought for thought revelation thank God because if my thoughts could be heard ehn... Chai chai, I may not be called sis Tega again.  Did I say penny for your thoughts? Some of us won't bargain £1million for our thoughts sef.

Within the first hour of losing my mum, someone actually told me congratulations. I could not believe it, I don't care what she meant, at that time I felt it was the most insensitive thing I've ever been unprivileged to hear but because I'm a Christian girl na, I just smiled but my mind had given her a low down dirty lecture on controlling her tongue. But then I am sister Tega!!! 

It is well.

Truly the bible is complete.

Philippians 4:8

#riponitega 

ONI TEGA...

Sometime in June my mama came to abuja to rest, change of scene/environment. There are three of us kids in abuja so she had a swell time going from house to house. She wasn't very strong, she used a stick sometimes but she was generally happy to be around us.

When I took her to the airport, I had to arrange wheel chair services for her and I felt so bad seeing her in the chair but I didn't want her to suffer trekking and risking the flight leaving her. While we were waiting my mama gave me plenty advice about marriage,  telling me how much she loves me. I wheeled her almost to the Tarmac and I started to cry uncontrollably for no reason, the airport staff were making fun of me. My husband kept wondering why I was crying so much.

Now I know why! She called me her confidant, told me (almost) everything. Sometimes it felt like a burden hearing her tales but....

At about midday My mummy, Oni Tega like I fondly called her, my paddy went to rest. I am sad because I hoped I'd see you next week, because I hoped you'd carry my babies, you even had a name for the first child but I am glad you gave your life to Christ. 

73 with 8 children, 15 grandchildren, God was good to you. 

Enjoy your stay with God and you had better join the cloud of witnesses the bible talked about. 

You weren't perfect but I love you endlessly.

On a lighter note I am officially an orphan.

11th COMMANDMENT..

Not too long ago i was studying the bible and i reached Matthew 6:33 and I really wondered how I can live that scripture out but it kept jumbling up in my head, so as my teacher taught us in the foundation class of my church on rebirth in Christ, he said I am an ambassador of heaven on earth, it struck a cord so I went back and googled the role and benefits of an ambassador.

An ambassador is the highest ranking representative of whatever nation. Appointed by the president. they have the responsibility to protect and promote the country's interest to the world, they cannot override a foreign country's system but they can make sure their citizens receive all the rights they are entitled to,They work long hours in sometimes remote and dangerous locations, 

Some Benefits 

Paid staff

Free housing

Body guards

A car and driver

Enviable salaries

Free health care

Diplomatic immunity 

And then I am an ambassador of Heaven to earth. If man can give all these benefits, how much more the creator of the whole universe, our help in ages past, our hope for years to come, the One who spoke the earth into form, the captain of the army of Israel, the one at His voice mountains melt like wax.

if there's a shaking in the nation the ambassador is in, it is the duty of the president to make sure he is taken care of. He is unshaken by what is going on, he has confidence in the nation he's representing. 

People no matter what is going on around you,no money, no job, no spouse, no children, no school fees, no house rent, boko haram, Isis, though the tempest has turned your smile upside down, remain unshaken because YOU ARE AN AMBASSADOR OF HEAVEN.   He is the PRESIDENT OF ALL PRESIDENTS, He will make sure you are taken care of, He who promised is faithful.

Like my pastor O would say, do you know who you are? Read back the roles and benefits, stand in front of your mirror, repeat the words and walk in that knowledge. Sinach caught the revelation since.

The 11th commandment is KNOW THYSELF. 

YOURS TRULY

AMBASSADOR TEGA OF THE MOST HIGH GOD IN HEAVEN TO PLANET EARTH AKA FINE GIRL WITH ANOINTING.

SEPTEMBER TO REMEMBER

Haven't written in 5 months due to circumstances within my control. No need to lie abeg. I started this blog one year ago, I'm grateful to God for His many mercies. 

I lost my writing juice because I let people get to me, but I learnt a valuable lesson; people diss what they don't understand. 

A lot of negative feedback, and instead of me to stay focused, I let myself get tossed about by their words. It is a weakness of mine,(caring what people say). I forgot what my driving force was and I am glad for sensitivity so I am back.

If my post draws only one person to Christ, so be it. 

Glad to be back.

STRIVE TO BE A THINKER..

On Sunday  morning, as one of my pastors was talking about thanking God, she said something most of us have heard before, that's if you can think, you will break into thanks to God. I just said regular thanks to God for different obvious things. 

The Holy Spirit had told me a few days ago to deliberately thank Him for my salvation and I did it personally not as a testimony in church. Then this Sunday, He showed me why. I could have been in a mental institution, I could have been totally lost and become a prayer point. But I am on this side interceding. I am not better than the many loonies out there, we did the drugs together, but I am on this side.I've failed in different businesses but He gives me more chances. Someone probably prayed for my salvation and then Jesus found me. 

If I live a thousand years, it won't be enough to say thank you for my salvation.

Father I deliberately give you all the worship due to you.

Pray for someone's salvation today.

Pray for my friend ify.

LOVE SO DEEP

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So I heard the choir in my church do a song titled "you covered me". I thought it sounded nice and emotional for my Daddy. Then I got my darling Kilete to download it for me and I listened to it over and over. Then then the words hit me.

There's a part that says "You saw my needs when others saw my faults, You forgave me". It made me realise how mighty this God is, how sweet He is. How can He be so benevolent in the midst of our iniquity? He is love meeeeeehn.

I have a weakness, Infact many weaknesses, I struggle so hard to change but this papa of mine made me realise that He doesn't need my strength to do His work. He says I should just lean in and see His ALMIGHTINESS.

Love so deep.

Have you ever done "shan't gree" (struggle) then burst into tears cos It still didn't add up? He's waiting for you Hun..

It is ok if you are rebelling now, don't stay away because you feel shame for things you have done or not done. Forget what humans will say, we were made to be critical so we can understand that only God is perfect.

Always come back, His arms are huge and warm. He still loves you, you can't make Him love you less or more.

You are weak like that. Ehn, very weak.

Give in baby, because you will lose to Him or the devil and losing to Him gives you lasting peace.

Let God take the glory in your life.

Ephesians 3:17-18, Romans 8:39

YOU ARE NOT ALONE..

I decided ( with the Holy Spirit) to post other peoples struggles with addictions here because I know there are loads of people who feel no one understands their pain.. This is a dear friend of mine, tongue talking, spirit filled, demon commanding beautiful girl with anointing, she has this to share..

         I got born again at the age of fifteen but later derailed and went into all sorts of things sex, alcohol, pornography. . . Then I met a man that told me I was better than that and then he took me to a gathering where I rededicated my life to Christ on the morning of third March 2009 (you can't believe I didn't remember the exact date until the Holy Spirit reminded me as I was writing this piece) and so my Christian walk started.

       With the help of the Holy Spirit (even though at that time I didn't know Him) I was able to let go of some many of the bad habits I had picked up. But shortly after I got married I discovered I was secretly struggling with pornography, I was spending so much money on data so I could watch it online. Pornography had me by its jaws and I had no one to talk to, I felt ashamed yet I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't even talk to my husband and was seriously hiding it from him.

       After a while my husband found out because of course the sites I was visiting were on the history of my laptop, I can remember the look of disappointment on his face and then he says something " I can't help you with this, only God can". I had no idea how to go to God about this but I wanted a change in my life. Pornography was eating pieces of my life, it was affecting my marriage I desperately needed a change.

        So one day I look up and say "Jesus, you carried our burdens right? Well this is a burden I can't bear, please take it off me" peace came over me and for the first time I started to think about the sacrifice on the cross. I made a conscious effort by the help of the HolySpirit to clear the history on my laptop and stop myself from visiting websites I used to frequent.

       That was how my deliverance came, I don't know if you are trying to drop a habit like me, I have good news..IT IS POSSIBLE TO LIVE SIN FREE! believe it and live it. Jesus is waiting for you to realise you are helpless without Him, you have to admit it to Him and yourself. The word of God says in 1 corinthians 12:9 "and He said unto me, my grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me" Praise the Lord! Just look at That!  What a Promise! Remember the veil has been torn, so take a bold step into the Holy of holies and lay your burdens at His feet. God bless you.

Matthew 11:28