I've been struggling with a few stuff recently and It is helping me grow. My growth may not be at a pace expected, but I am savouring it.
I was quite angry with someone and everything the person did just plain irritated me. One day I kept hearing "love does not give up", I honestly didn't want to hear it because my mind was made up on what I wanted to do.
Then God asked me if I wanted Him to give up on me when I fail Him. I cried, telling God if He's not seeing what this person is doing to me and He has refused to answer me again.
My husband has his own love language which is slightly different from mine and it irks me badly. In one of my moments of wondering how I didn't notice all this before marriage, the Holy Spirit whispers to me "love on me Tega and I will teach him to love you the way you want".
Now, how on earth will the Holy Spirit be telling me to love on Him, He knows I love Him. So I began to search my ways.
I've not had a full day of just being in His presence in two years like I used to.
I've not even had up to one hour of being in His presence in recent times just praising Him, I'm constantly interceding, or negotiatiating or weeping ,asking for something.
Sometimes I rush out without giving Him the first fruits of my day.
I've not paid much attention to my Father, yet He watches over me constantly.
All I can do is ask for mercy...
