I am so excited I am back yippee. It has been one year I wrote last and I have missed this space.
It is amazing the things that can happen in one year.
I posted mostly on Facebook but I decided to space my posts on Facebook for now and concentrate on my baby right here.
Part 2 of smiling depression.
I remember when Robbie Williams was said to have committed suicide, it came as a shock to many.
You can be doing all that needs to be done, looking all perfect but dying slowly inside.
Perfectionists are also people who need to be looked at closely, or if you suffer from approval addiction ( wanting to please everyone)
Some common symptoms of smiling depression are feelings of anxiety, fear, anger, fatigue, irritability, hopelessness, lack of enjoyment in pleasurable activities, loss of libido. Experience varies per person so it is possible to feel just one, more or all of these.
You can also liken this disorder to wearing a mask, to the outside world, all is well but underneath the mask they are suffering from panic attacks, sadness, low self esteem and sometimes suicidal thoughts.
Smiling depression can be more dangerous because those suffering from this disorder have the energetic ability to plan and follow through with their suicidal thoughts.
Good news is help is available.
It is said to be one of the most treatable mental health problems.
It is possible to successfully come out of this state of mind and be freed from sadness.
Find a counsellor,therapist or your pastor.
People start to heal when they feel heard.
Sometimes the crown gets heavy, weighed down by a myriad of responsibility, expectations and illusions. You feel you have worked hard to earn the right to out it on your head, but some days it is too heavy, you want to take it off and let it drop to the ground, but you remember you've got little queens watching. So you just sigh, close your eyes, squeeze a few tears out and you put the crown back on your head, weight and all. You remember you are an heir to a promise, the daughter of a king. So you wear that crown and rule as He wills.
Thank you Sifa for this last paragraph I wrote, because when I took this picture I had a whole lot going on and needed to talk to one person who will not judge me or laugh at me, then someone walked up to me with problems of her own and I had to put on my crown and wipe my own tears.
Put it back on.
Psalm 40:1-3
Meditate on this Matthew 11:28
Mostly culled from psychologytoday and Sifa Gowon
