YOU ARE NOT ALONE..

I decided ( with the Holy Spirit) to post other peoples struggles with addictions here because I know there are loads of people who feel no one understands their pain.. This is a dear friend of mine, tongue talking, spirit filled, demon commanding beautiful girl with anointing, she has this to share..

         I got born again at the age of fifteen but later derailed and went into all sorts of things sex, alcohol, pornography. . . Then I met a man that told me I was better than that and then he took me to a gathering where I rededicated my life to Christ on the morning of third March 2009 (you can't believe I didn't remember the exact date until the Holy Spirit reminded me as I was writing this piece) and so my Christian walk started.

       With the help of the Holy Spirit (even though at that time I didn't know Him) I was able to let go of some many of the bad habits I had picked up. But shortly after I got married I discovered I was secretly struggling with pornography, I was spending so much money on data so I could watch it online. Pornography had me by its jaws and I had no one to talk to, I felt ashamed yet I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't even talk to my husband and was seriously hiding it from him.

       After a while my husband found out because of course the sites I was visiting were on the history of my laptop, I can remember the look of disappointment on his face and then he says something " I can't help you with this, only God can". I had no idea how to go to God about this but I wanted a change in my life. Pornography was eating pieces of my life, it was affecting my marriage I desperately needed a change.

        So one day I look up and say "Jesus, you carried our burdens right? Well this is a burden I can't bear, please take it off me" peace came over me and for the first time I started to think about the sacrifice on the cross. I made a conscious effort by the help of the HolySpirit to clear the history on my laptop and stop myself from visiting websites I used to frequent.

       That was how my deliverance came, I don't know if you are trying to drop a habit like me, I have good news..IT IS POSSIBLE TO LIVE SIN FREE! believe it and live it. Jesus is waiting for you to realise you are helpless without Him, you have to admit it to Him and yourself. The word of God says in 1 corinthians 12:9 "and He said unto me, my grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me" Praise the Lord! Just look at That!  What a Promise! Remember the veil has been torn, so take a bold step into the Holy of holies and lay your burdens at His feet. God bless you.

Matthew 11:28

4 YEARS DON WAKA...

I take testimonies in wwp on Tuesday mornings, so I am privileged to hear the testimonies before the rest of the house. 

This last Tuesday a very dear aunty came to write that she's thanking God because she's still standing in Christ. 

At first it didn't sink because I was writing many others but later the Holy Spirit breezed it past me again and it dawned on me how important it is to thank Him for that. Many people have fallen by the way side, they could not be torn away from the 'pleasures' of sin. Forgetting that the wages of sin is death. 

The devil is very purposeful and anything to water down the blood of Jesus gives him pleasure, standing in Christ is a deliberate way of living, salvation is worked out, it isnt slapped on you.

My interview with 700 club today reminded me how far God has brought me from my highway to hell, how much He loves me. I fall, I fail but He loves me. That fact I can take to the bank. 

If I had a million tongues and and lived a thousand years, it will never ever be enough to give you all the praise.

So I am thankful for today, I'm grateful for today, and I deliberately give You all the worship due to You.

You are the reason I live,You are the very One for me and  no one knows what You mean to me Jesus. I boldly declare that I love You, thank You that I am still standing in You, despite everything the enemy brought my way, even In the church, You held me together, You didn't let me go, you reminded me constantly that You are who matters not what is going around me.

4 years 4 days ago I made the best decision of my life, today I rededicate my life to You withholding nothing. I love You breathlessly, too much for words.

Thank you Laura, Becky, Uju, and the rest of the CBN crew, God bless you all for the amazing job, may you not miss your reward here and in heaven.