I got born again at the age of fifteen but later derailed and went into all sorts of things sex, alcohol, pornography. . . Then I met a man that told me I was better than that and then he took me to a gathering where I rededicated my life to Christ on the morning of third March 2009 (you can't believe I didn't remember the exact date until the Holy Spirit reminded me as I was writing this piece) and so my Christian walk started.
With the help of the Holy Spirit (even though at that time I didn't know Him) I was able to let go of some many of the bad habits I had picked up. But shortly after I got married I discovered I was secretly struggling with pornography, I was spending so much money on data so I could watch it online. Pornography had me by its jaws and I had no one to talk to, I felt ashamed yet I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't even talk to my husband and was seriously hiding it from him.
After a while my husband found out because of course the sites I was visiting were on the history of my laptop, I can remember the look of disappointment on his face and then he says something " I can't help you with this, only God can". I had no idea how to go to God about this but I wanted a change in my life. Pornography was eating pieces of my life, it was affecting my marriage I desperately needed a change.
So one day I look up and say "Jesus, you carried our burdens right? Well this is a burden I can't bear, please take it off me" peace came over me and for the first time I started to think about the sacrifice on the cross. I made a conscious effort by the help of the HolySpirit to clear the history on my laptop and stop myself from visiting websites I used to frequent.
That was how my deliverance came, I don't know if you are trying to drop a habit like me, I have good news..IT IS POSSIBLE TO LIVE SIN FREE! believe it and live it. Jesus is waiting for you to realise you are helpless without Him, you have to admit it to Him and yourself. The word of God says in 1 corinthians 12:9 "and He said unto me, my grace is sufficient for thee, for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me" Praise the Lord! Just look at That! What a Promise! Remember the veil has been torn, so take a bold step into the Holy of holies and lay your burdens at His feet. God bless you.
Matthew 11:28
Amen. These secret sins or besetting sins as the bible describes them are the ones that get very strong, tongue speaking Christians into alot of mess. Some even cost the salvation of some believers.
ReplyDeleteWe need to take a stand and wage war. since you can't do it alone, Ask for the help of the Holy Spirit
Amen. These secret sins or besetting sins as the bible describes them are the ones that get very strong, tongue speaking Christians into alot of mess. Some even cost the salvation of some believers.
ReplyDeleteWe need to take a stand and wage war. since you can't do it alone, Ask for the help of the Holy Spirit